Monday, January 31, 2011

मधुपिण्डिकसुत्तं

एवं मे सुतं – एकं समयं भगवा सक्‍केसु विहरति कपिलवत्थुस्मिं निग्रोधारामे। अथ खो भगवा पुब्बण्हसमयं निवासेत्वा पत्तचीवरमादाय कपिलवत्थुं पिण्डाय पाविसि। कपिलवत्थुस्मिं पिण्डाय चरित्वा पच्छाभत्तं पिण्डपातपटिक्‍कन्तो येन महावनं तेनुपसङ्कमि दिवाविहाराय। महावनं अज्झोगाहेत्वा बेलुवलट्ठिकाय मूले दिवाविहारं निसीदि। दण्डपाणिपि खो सक्‍को जङ्घाविहारं [जङ्घविहारं (क॰)] अनुचङ्कममानो अनुविचरमानो येन महावनं तेनुपसङ्कमि। महावनं अज्झोगाहेत्वा येन बेलुवलट्ठिका येन भगवा तेनुपसङ्कमि; उपसङ्कमित्वा भगवता सद्धिं सम्मोदि। सम्मोदनीयं कथं सारणीयं वीतिसारेत्वा दण्डमोलुब्भ एकमन्तं अट्ठासि। एकमन्तं ठितो खो दण्डपाणि सक्‍को भगवन्तं एतदवोच – ‘‘किंवादी समणो किमक्खायी’’ति? ‘‘यथावादी खो, आवुसो, सदेवके लोके समारके सब्रह्मके सस्समणब्राह्मणिया पजाय सदेवमनुस्साय न केनचि लोके विग्गय्ह तिट्ठति, यथा च पन कामेहि विसंयुत्तं विहरन्तं तं ब्राह्मणं अकथंकथिं छिन्‍नकुक्‍कुच्‍चं भवाभवे वीततण्हं सञ्‍ञा नानुसेन्ति – एवंवादी खो अहं, आवुसो, एवमक्खायी’’ति।
‘‘एवं वुत्ते दण्डपाणि सक्‍को सीसं ओकम्पेत्वा , जिव्हं निल्‍लाळेत्वा, तिविसाखं नलाटिकं नलाटे वुट्ठापेत्वा दण्डमोलुब्भ पक्‍कामि।


I have heard that on one occasion the Blessed One was living among the Sakyans near Kapilavatthu in the Banyan Park. Then in the early morning, having put on his robes and carrying his bowl & outer robe, he went into Kapilavatthu for alms. Having gone for alms in Kapilavatthu, after the meal, returning from his alms round, he went to the Great Wood for the day's abiding. Plunging into the Great Wood, he sat down at the root of a bilva sapling for the day's abiding.


Dandapani ("Stick-in-hand") the Sakyan, out roaming & rambling for exercise, also went to the Great Wood. Plunging into the Great Wood, he went to where the Blessed One was under the bilva sapling. On arrival, he exchanged courteous greetings with him. After an exchange of friendly greetings & courtesies, he stood to one side. As he was standing there, he said to the Blessed One, "What is the contemplative's doctrine? What does he proclaim?"


"The sort of doctrine, friend, where one does not keep quarreling with anyone in the cosmos with its devas, Maras, & Brahmas, with its contemplatives & priests, its royalty & commonfolk; the sort [of doctrine] where perceptions no longer obsess the brahman who remains dissociated from sensuality, free from perplexity, his uncertainty cut away, devoid of craving for becoming & non-. Such is my doctrine, such is what I proclaim."



When this was said, Dandapani the Sakyan — shaking his head, wagging his tongue, raising his eyebrows so that his forehead was wrinkled in three furrows — left, leaning on his stick.


Coutsey: from "Madhupindika Sutta: The Ball of Honey" (MN 18), translated from the Pali by Thanissaro Bhikkhu. Access to Insight, June 14, 2010, http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/mn/mn.018.than.html.



Friday, January 7, 2011

Dostoevsky writes to his brother

The Peter and Paul Fortress,
December 22, 1849.

MlHAIL MlHAILOVICH DOSTOEVSKY,

Nevsky Prospect, opposite

in the house of Neslind.



Brother, my precious friend ! all is settled ! I

am sentenced to four years' hard labour in the

fortress (I believe, of Orenburg) and after that to

serve as a private. To-day, the 22nd of December,

we were taken to the Semionov Drill Ground.

There the sentence of death was read to all of us, we

were told to kiss the Cross, our swords were broken

over our heads, and our last toilet was made (white

shirts). Then three were tied to the pillar for

execution. I was the sixth. Three at a time were

called out ; consequently, I was in the second batch

and no more than a minute was left me to live.

I remembered you, brother, and all yours ; during

the last minute you, you alone, were in my mind,

only then I realised how I love you, dear brother

mine ! I also managed to embrace Plescheyev and

Durov who stood close to me and to say good-bye

to them. Finally the retreat was sounded, and

those tied to the pillar were led back, and it was

announced to us that His Imperial Majesty granted

us our lives. Then followed the present sentences.

Palm alone has been pardoned, and returns with

his old rank to the army.

I was just told, dear brother, that to-day or

to-morrow we are to be sent off. I asked to see you.

But I was told that this was impossible ; I may

only write you this letter : make haste and give

me a reply as soon as you can. I am afraid that

you may somehow have got to know of our death-

sentence. From the windows of the prison-van,

when we were taken to the Semionov Drill Ground,

I saw a multitude of people ; perhaps the news

reached you, and you suffered for me. Now you

will be easier on my account. Brother ! I have


not become downhearted or low-spirited. Life is


everywhere life, life in ourselves, not in what is


outside us. There will be people near me, and to


be a man among people and remain a man for ever,


not to be downhearted nor to fall in whatever


misfortunes may befall me - this is life ; this is


the task of life. I have realised this. This idea


has entered into my flesh and into my blood. Yes,

it 's true ! The head which was creating, living

with the highest life of art, which had realised and

grown used to the highest needs of the spirit, that

head has already been cut off from my shoulders.

There remain the memory and the images created

but not yet incarnated by me. They will lacerate

me, it is true ! But there remains in me my heart

and the same flesh and blood which can also love,

and suffer, and desire, and remember, and this,

after all, is life. On voit le soleil ! Now, good-bye,

brother ! Don't grieve for me !

Now about material things : my books (I have

the Bible still) and several sheets of my manu-

script, the rough plan of the play and the novel

(and the finished story A Child's Tale) have been

taken away from me, and in all probability will

be got by you. I also leave my overcoat and old

clothes, if you send to fetch them. Now, brother,

I may perhaps have to march a long distance.

Money is needed. My dear brother, when you

receive this letter, and if there is any possibility of

getting some money, send it me at once. Money I

need now more than air (for one particular purpose).

Send me also a few lines. Then if the money from

Moscow comes,  remember me and do not desert

me. Well, that is all ! I have debts,  but what

can I do ?

Kiss your wife and children. Remind them of

me continually ; see that they do not forget me.

Perhaps, we shall yet meet some time ! Brother,

take care of yourself and of your family, live

quietly and carefully. Think of the future of your

children. . . . Live positively. There has never

yet been working in me such a healthy abundance

of spiritual life as now. But will my body endure ?

I do not know. I am going away sick, I suffer

from scrofula. But never mind ! Brother, I have

already gone through so much in life that now

hardly anything can frighten me. Let come what

may ! At the first opportunity I shall let you know

about myself. Give the Maikovs my farewell and

last greetings. Tell them that I thank them all

for their constant interest in my fate. Say a few

words for me, as warm as possible, as your heart

will prompt you, to Eugenia Petrovna. 1 I wish

her much happiness, and shall ever remember her

with grateful respect. Press the hands of Nikolay

Apollonovich and Apollon Maikov, and also of all

the others. Find Yanovsky. Press his hand,

thank him. Finally, press the hands of all who

have not forgotten me. And those who have

forgotten me  remember me to them also. Kiss

our brother Kolya. Write a letter to our brother

Andrey and let him know about me. Write also

to Uncle and Aunt. This I ask you in my own

name, and greet them for me. Write to our sisters :

I wish them happiness.

And maybe, we shall meet again some time,

brother ! Take care of yourself, go on living, for

the love of God, until we meet. Perhaps some

time we shall embrace each other and recall our

youth, our golden time that was, our youth

and our hopes, which at this very instant I am

tearing out from my heart with my blood, to bury

them.

Can it indeed be that I shall never take a pen

into my hands ? I think that after the four years

there may be a possibility. I shall send you every-

thing that I may write, if I write anything, my

God ! How many imaginations, lived through by

me, created by me anew, will perish, will be ex-

tinguished in my brain or will be spilt as poison in

my blood ! Yes, if I am not allowed to write, I

shall perish. Better fifteen years of prison with a

pen in my hands !

Write to me more often, write more details,

more, more facts. In every letter write about all

kinds of family details, of trifles, don't forget.

This will give me hope and life. If you knew

how your letters revived me here in the fortress.

These last two months and a half, when it was

forbidden to write or receive a letter, have been

very hard on me. I was ill. The fact that you

did not send me money now and then worried me

on your account ; it meant you yourself were in

great need ! Kiss the children once again ; their

lovely little faces do not leave my mind. Ah,

that they may be happy ! Be happy yourself too,

brother, be happy !

But do not grieve, for the love of God, do not

grieve for me ! Do believe that I am not down-

hearted, do remember that hope has not deserted

me. In four years there will be a mitigation of

my fate. I shall be a private soldier, — no longer

a prisoner, and remember that some time I shall

embrace you. I was to-day in the grip of death for

three-quarters of an hour ; I have lived it through

with that idea ; I was at the last instant and now

I live again !

If any one has bad memories of me, if I have

quarrelled with any one, if I have created in

any one an unpleasant impression — tell them they

should forget it, if you manage to meet them. There

is no gall or spite in my soul ; I should dearly love

to embrace any one of my former friends at this

moment. It is a comfort, I experienced it to-day

when saying good-bye to my dear ones before death.

I thought at that moment that the news of the

execution would kill you. But now be easy, I am

still alive and shall live in the future with the

thought that some time I shall embrace you. Only

this is now in my mind.

What are you doing ? What have you been

thinking to-day ? Do you know about us ? How

cold it was to-day !

Ah, if only my letter reaches you soon. Other-

wise I shall be for four months without news of

you. I saw the envelopes in which you sent money

during the last two months ; the address was

written in your hand, and I was glad that you were

well.

When I look back at the past and think how

much time has been wasted in vain, how much

time was lost in delusions, in errors, in idleness, in

ignorance of how to live, how I did not value time,

how often I sinned against my heart and spirit,

— my heart bleeds. Life is a gift, life is happiness,

each minute might have been an age of happiness.

Si jeunesse savait ! Now, changing my life, I am

being reborn into a new form. Brother ! I swear

to you that I shall not lose hope, and shall preserve

my spirit and heart in purity. I shall be reborn

to a better thing. That is my whole hope, my whole

comfort !

The life in prison has already sufficiently killed

in me the demands of the flesh which were not

wholly pure ; I took little heed of myself before.

Now privations are nothing to me, and, therefore,

do not fear that any material hardship will kill me.

This cannot be ! Ah ! To have health !

Good-bye, good-bye, my brother ! When shall

I write you again ? You will receive from me as

detailed an account as possible of my journey.

If I can only preserve my health, then everything

will be right !

Well, good-bye, good-bye, brother ! I embrace

you closely, I kiss you closely. Remember me

without pain in your heart. Do not grieve, I pray

you, do not grieve for me ! In the next letter I

shall tell you how I go on. Remember then what

I have told you : plan out your life, do not

waste it, arrange your destiny, think of your

children. Oh, to see you, to see you ! Good-bye !

Now I tear myself away from everything that was

dear ; it is painful to leave it ! It is painful to

break oneself in two, to cut the heart in two.

Good-bye ! Good-bye ! But I shall see you, I

am convinced , I hope ; do not change, love me,

do not let your memory grow cold, and the thought

of your love will be the best part of my life. Good-

bye, good-bye, once more ! Good-bye to all !



Your brother Fiodor Dostoevsky.

At my arrest several books were taken away

from me. Only two of them were prohibited books.

Won't you get the rest for yourself ? But there is

this request : one of the books was The Work of

Valerian Maikov : his critical essays  Eugenia

Petrovna's copy. It was her treasure, and she

lent it me. At my arrest I asked the police officer

to return that book to her, and gave him the

address. I do not know if he returned it to her.

Make enquiries ! I do not want to take this memory

away from her. Good-bye, good-bye, once more !

Your F. Dostoevsky.

On the margins :

I do not know if I shall have to march or go on

horses. I believe I shall go on horses. Perhaps !

Once again press Emily Fiodorovna's hand, kiss

the little ones. Remember me to Krayevsky :

perhaps . . .

Write me more particularly about your arrest,

confinement, and liberation


Gryazny Street
,

Thursday, January 6, 2011

TOLSTOY IN A SLAUGHTER-HOUSE

The other day I visited the slaughter-house in our city
of Tula. The slaughter-house is built according to a new,
perfected method, as it is built in large cities, so that the
animals killed shall suffer as little as possible. This was
on a Friday, two days before Pentecost. There were there
a large number of cattle.

Before that, a long time before, when reading the beautiful
book, Ethics of Diet, I had made up my mind to
visit the slaughter-house, in order with my own eyes to
see the facts of the case, which are mentioned whenever
vegetarianism is mentioned. But I felt uneasy, as one
always feels uneasy when going to see sufferings which
are sure to be there, but which one cannot prevent, and
so I kept putting it off.

But lately I met on the road a butcher, who had been
home and now was going back to Tula. He is not yet an
experienced butcher, and his duty consists in stabbing
with a dagger. I asked him whether he did not feel sorry
that he had to kill the animals. And as the answer
always is, so he answered, " Why be sorry ? This has to
be done." But when I told him that eating meat was not
necessary, he agreed with me, and then he also agreed
with me that it was a pity to kill. " What is to be done ?
I have to make a hving," he said. " At first I was afraid
to kill. My father never killed a cliicken in all his life."

The majority of Russians cannot kill ; they feel pity,
which they express by the word " afraid." He, too, had
been afraid, but had stopped. He explained to me that
the busiest day is Friday, when the work lasts until
evening.

Lately, too, I had a talk with a soldier, a butcher, and
he, too, was surprised in the same way at my assertion
that it is a pity to kill ; and, as always, he said that this
was the law ; but later he agreed with me, " Especially
when it is a tame, kind animal. The dear animal comes
up to you, believing you. It is truly a pity !"

One day we returned from Moscow on foot, and some
drivers of drays, going from Serpukhov to a forest to get
a merchant's timber, gave us a lift. It was Maundy
Thursday. I was riding in the first telega with a strong,
red-faced, coarse driver, who was apparently very drunk.

As we entered a village, we saw that from the last yard
they were pulling a fattened, shorn, pink-coloured pig, to
get it killed. The pig squealed in a desperate voice,
which resembled that of a man. Just as we passed by,
they began to kill the pig. One of the men drew the
knife down its throat. It squealed louder and more penetratingly
than before, tore itself loose, and ran away,
shedding its blood. I am near-sighted and so did not see
all the details ; all I saw was the pink-coloured flesh of
the pig, which resembled that of a man, and I heard the
desperate squeal ; but the driver saw all the details, and
he looked in that direction without taking his eyes off.

The pig was caught and thrown down, and they began to
finish the lolling. When its squeal died down, the driver
drew a deep sigh.
" Is it possible men will not have to answer for this ?" he muttered.

So strong is people's disgust at any kind of a murder;
but by example, by encouraging men's greed, by the assertion
that this is permitted by God, and chiefly by habit,
people have been brought to a complete loss of this
natural feeling.

On Friday I went to Tula, and, upon meeting an acquaintance
of mine, a meek, kindly man, I invited him
to go with me.
" Yes, I have heard that it is well arranged, and I
should like to see it, but if they slaughter there, I sha'n't
go in."
 " Why not ? It is precisely what I want to see. If
meat is to be eaten, cattle have to be killed."
" No, no, I cannot."

What is remarkable in this case is, that this man is a
hunter and himself kills birds and animals.

We arrived. Even before entering we could smell the
oppressive, detestable, rotten odour of joiner's glue or of
glue paint. The farther we went, the stronger was this
odour. It is a very large, red brick building, with vaults
and high chimneys. We entered through the gate. On
the right was a large fenced yard, about a quarter of a
desyatina in size, —this is the cattle-yard, to which the
cattle for sale are driven two days in the week,— and at
the edge of this space is the janitor's little house ; on the
left were what they call the chambers, that is, rooms
with round gates, concave asphalt floors, and appliances
for hanging up and handhng the carcasses. By the wall
of the little house, and to the right of it, sat six butchers
in aprons, which were covered with blood, with bloodbespattered
sleeves rolled up over muscular arms. They
liad finished their work about half an hour ago, so that on
that day we could see only the empty chambers. In spite
of the gates being opened on two sides, there was in each
chamber an oppressive odour of warm blood ; the floor
was cinnamon-coloured and shining, and in the depressions
of the floor stood coagulated black gore.

One of the butchers told us how they slaughtered, and
showed us the place where this is done. I did not quite
understand him, and formed a false, but very terrible conception
of how they slaughtered, and I thought, as is
often the case, that the reality would produce a lesser effect
upon me than what I had imagined. But I was
mistaken in this.

The next time I came to the slaughter-house in time
It was on Friday before Pentecost. It was a hot June
day. The odour of glue and of blood was even more oppressive
and more noticeable in the morning, than during
my first visit. The work was at white heat. The dusty square
was all full of cattle, and the cattle were driven
into all the stalls near the chambers.

In the street in front of the building stood carts with
steers, heifers, and cows tied to the cart stakes and shafts.
Butchers' carts, drawn by good horses, loaded with live
calves with dangling heads, drove up and unloaded ; and
similar carts with upturned and shaking legs of the carcasses
of steers, with their heads, bright red lungs and
dark red livers drove away from the slaughter-house.

Near the fence stood the mounts of the cattle-dealers.
The cattle-dealers themselves, in their long coats, with
whips and knouts in their hands, walked up and down in
the yard, either marking one man's cattle with tar paint,
or haggling, or attending to the transfer of bulls and
steers from the square to the stalls, from which the cattle
entered the chambers. These men were obviously all
absorbed in money operations and calculations, and the
thought that it is good or bad to kill these animals was
as far from them as the thought as to what was the chemical
composition of the blood with which the floor of the
chambers was covered.

No butchers could be seen in the yards : they were all
working in the chambers. During this day about one
hundred steers were killed. I entered a chamber and
stopped at the door. I stopped, both because the chamber
was crowded with the carcasses which were being
shifted, and because the blood ran underfoot and dripped
from above, and all the butchers who were there were
smeared in it, and, upon entering inside, I should certainly
have been smeared with blood. They were taking
down one carcass, which was suspended ; another was being
moved to the door ; a third, a dead ox, was lying with
his white legs turned up, and a butcher with his strong
fist was ripping the stretched-out hide.
 
Through the door opposite to the one where I was
standing they were at that time taking in a large, red,
fattened ox. Two men were pulling him. And they
had barely brought him in, when I saw a butcher raise
a dagger ov'er his head and strike him. The ox dropped
down on his belly, as though he had been knocked off all
his four legs at once, immediately rolled over on one side,
and began to kick with his legs and with his whole back.

One of the butchers immediately threw himself on the
fore part of the ox, from the end opposite his kicking
legs, took hold of his horns, bent his head to the ground,
and from beneath the head there spirted the dark red
blood, under the current of which a boy besmeared in
blood placed a tin basin. All the time while they were
doing this, the ox kept jerking his head, as though trying
to get up, and kicked with all his four legs in the air.
The basin filled rapidly, but the ox was still alive and,
painfully contracting and expanding his belly, kicked
with his fore legs and hind legs, so that the butchers had
to get out of his way. When one basin was filled, the
boy carried it on his head to the albumen plant, while
another boy set down another basin, which also began to
fill up. But the ox kept contracting and expanding his
belly and jerked with his hind legs. When the blood
stopped flowing, the butcher raised the head of the ox
and began to flay him. The ox continued kicking. The
head was bared and began to look red with white veins,
and assumed the position given to it by the butchers ; on
both sides of it hung the hide. The ox continued to kick.
Then another butcher caught the ox by a leg, which he
broke and cut off. Convulsions ran up and down the
belly and the other legs. The other legs, too, were cut
off, and they were thrown where all the legs belonging to
one owner were thrown. Then the carcass was pulled up
to a block and tackle and was stretched out, and there
all motion stopped.
Thus I stood at the door and looked at a second, a
third, a fourth ox. With all of them the same happened:
the same flayed head with pinched tongue and the same
kicking back. The only difference was that the butcher
did not always strike in the right place to make the ox
fall. It happened that the butcher made a mistake, and
the ox jumped up, bellowed, and, shedding blood, tried to
get away. But then he was pulled under a beam and
struck a second time, after which he fell.
I later walked up from the side of the door, through
which they brought in the oxen. Here I saw the same,
only at closer range, and, therefore, more clearly. I saw
here, above all else, what I had not seen through the
other door,—how they compelled the oxen to walk
through this door. Every time when they took an ox
out of the stall and pulled him by a rope, which was
attached to his horns, the ox, scenting the blood, became
stubborn and bellowed, and sometimes jerked back. It
was impossible for two men to pull him in by force, and
so a butcher every time went behind and took the ox by
the tail, which he twisted until the gristle cracked and
the tail broke, and the ox moved on.
The oxen of one owner were all finished, and they
brought up the cattle of another. The first from this lot
of the other owner was a bull. He was a fine-looking,
thoroughbred black bull, with white spots on his body
and white legs,—a young, muscular, energetic animal.
They began to pull him ; he dropped his head and absolutely
refused to move. But the butcher who was walking
behind took hold of his tail, as a machinist puts his
hand on the throttle, and twisted it ; the cartilage cracked,
and the bull rushed ahead, knocking the men who were
pulling at the rope off their feet, and again stood stubbornly
still, looking askance with his white, bloodshot
eyes. But again the tail cracked, and the bull rushed
forward and was where he was wanted. The butcher
walked up, took his aim, and struck him. But the stroke
did not fall in the right place. The bull jumped up,
tossed his head, bellowed, and, all covered with blood, tore
himself loose and rushed back. All the people at the
doors started back ; but the accustomed butchers, with
a daring which was the result of the , briskly took
hold of the rope and again of the tail, and again the bull
found himself in the chamber, where his head was pulled
under the beam, from which he no longer tore himself
away. The butcher briskly looked for the spot where
the hair scatters in the form of a star, and, having found
it, in spite of the blood, struck him, and the beautiful
animal, which was full of life, came down with a crash
and kicked with its head and legs, while they let off the
blood and flayed the head.
" Accursed devil, he did not even fall the right way,"
growled the butcher as he cut the hide from his head.
Five minutes later the red, instead of black, head, without
the hide, with glassy, fixed eyes, which but five minutes
before had glistened with such a beautiful colour, was suspended
on the beam.
Then I entered the division where they butcher the
smaller animals. It is a very large and long chamber,
with an asphalt floor and with tables with backs, on
which they butcher sheep and calves. Here the work
was all finished ; in the long chamber, which was saturated
with the odour of blood, there were only two
butchers. One was blowing into the leg of a dead
wether and patting the blown-up belly ; the other, a
young lad, with a blood-bespattered apron, was smoking
a bent cigarette. There was no one else in the gloomy,
long chamber, which was saturated with the oppressive
odour. Immediately after me there came in one who
looked like an ex-soldier, who brought a black yearling
lamb, with spots on his neck, which he put down on one
of the tables, as though on a bed. The soldier, apparently an acquaintance of theirs, greeted them and asked them
when their master gave them days off. The young lad
with the cigarette walked up with a knife, which he
sharpened at the edge of the table, and answered that
they had their holidays free. The Hve plump lamb was
lying quietly as though dead, only briskly wagging his
short tail and breathing more frequently than usual.
The soldier lightly, without effort, held down his head,
which was rising up ; the young lad, continuing the conversation,
took the lamb's head with his left hand and
quickly drew the knife down his throat. The lamb
shivered, and the little tail became arched and stopped
wagging. While waiting for the blood to run off, the
young lad puffed at the cigarette, which had nearly gone
out. The blood began to flow, and the lamb began to be
convulsed. The conversation was continued without the
least interruption.
And those hens and chickens, which every day in a
thousand kitchens, with heads cut off, shedding blood,
jump about comically and terribly, flapping their wings ?
And behold, a tender, refined lady wiU devour the
corpses of these animals with the full conviction of her
righteousness, asserting two propositions, which mutually
exclude one another:
The first, that she is so delicate—and of this she is
assured by her doctor—that she is unable to live on
vegetable food alone, but that her weak organism demands
animal food ; and the second, that she is so sensitive
that she not only cannot cause any sufferings to any
animal, but cannot even bear the sight of them.
And yet, this poor lady is weak for the very reason, and
for no other, that she has been taught to subsist on food
which is improper for man ; and she cannot help but
cause the animals suffering, because she devours them.We cannot pretend that we do not know this. We are
not ostriches, and we cannot believe that, if we do not look,
there will not be what we do not wish to see. This is
the more impossible, when we do not wish to see what
we wish to eat. And, above all else, if it were only indispensable
! But let us assume that it is not indispensable,
but necessary for some purpose. It is not.^ It is good
only for bringing out animal sensations, breeding lust,
fornication, drunkenness. This is constantly confirmed
by the fact that good, uncorrupted young men, especially
women and girls, feel, without knowing how one thing
follows from the other, that virtue is not compatible with
beefsteak, and as soon as they wish to be good, they give
up animal food.
What, then, do I wish to say ? Is it this, that men, to
be moral, must stop eating meat ? Not at all.
What I wanted to say is, that for a good life a certain
order of good acts is indispensable ; that if the striving
after the good hfe is serious in a man, it wiU inevitably
assume one certain order, and that in this order the first
virtue for a man to work on is abstinence, self-possession.
And in striving after abstinence, a man will inevitablyfollow one certain order, and in this order the first subject
will be abstinence in food, fasting. But in fasting, if he
seriously and sincerely seeks a good life, the first from
which a man will abstain will always be the use of
animal food, because, to say nothing of the excitation
of the passions, which this food produces, its use is
directly immoral, since it demands an act which is contrary
to our moral sense,— murder,—and is provoked
only by the desire and craving for good eating.
 
 
LEO TOLSTOY